What Are the Benefits of Recovery? (An Incomplete List)

I am not an expert on recovery. I am, however, an  expert in avoiding recovery.

Recovery isn’t something I actively chose to gave up, but little by little, the choices I made defaulted against it. Of course, you might also argue that recovery isn’t so black and white. But if I compare my life six months ago to now, where I’ve abandoned all previous attempts at self-improvement, it’s easy to say I chose against it. I certainly didn’t wake up one day and decide not to do it; the little rebel in me got louder and louder until I couldn’t remember why I was doing recovery and I certainly didn’t want to do it anymore.

I finally had a talk with myself. If I really want it on any level, I need to take steps to get back in, even if I’m lukewarm at first and need some convincing. The idea of going back to therapy is financially a puzzler, but not impossible overall, thanks to low-cost and free therapy ideas. Twelve step meetings are an option, though one I am hesitant to start doing again for a variety of reasons. Reconnecting with recovery friends is definitely possible. Reading my addiction/codependence books is a very easy option.

One major thing that holds me back besides not remembering my resources or feeling stuck is simply my own reluctance and hesitance. “Do I really want recovery? Should I really work this hard for it? It seems so difficult and my head gets so fuzzy easily; why should I do it at all? I don’t know what I’m doing anyway so just forget it for now!” So I made a non-comprehensive list of the benefits to remind myself in time of need.

Feel free to add your own.

Published by Jessica

Writer, video production freelancer, and still trying to figure it all out

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