What Are the Benefits of Recovery? (An Incomplete List)

I am not an expert on recovery. I am, however, an  expert in avoiding recovery. Recovery isn’t something I actively chose to gave up, but little by little, the choices I made defaulted against it. Of course, you might also argue that recovery isn’t so black and white. But if I compare my life sixContinue reading “What Are the Benefits of Recovery? (An Incomplete List)”

Why Does It Take Me A Month to Make a New Post?

Where have I been? I couldn’t really tell you. 50% work. 25% spending time with the friend who made the above inspiration board. 25% ignoring responsibilities and wringing my hands in guilt. That’s my best guess. They say you can’t lose recovery. I re-read a post of my own that talks about this. Yet two weeksContinue reading “Why Does It Take Me A Month to Make a New Post?”

[Re-Plug] Hierarchy of Basic Needs

In therapy last week, my therapist shared with me the six basic needs of all humans–connection, purpose, security/safety, acceptance, belonging, significance. These are the human needs at the emotional level, not necessarily the survival level. He then asked me to visually demonstrate on a piece of paper the order of importance these needs had in my life.Continue reading “[Re-Plug] Hierarchy of Basic Needs”

[Re-plug] I did a Yoga Sequence for the First Time in 10 months

I haven’t regularly practiced yoga in a year. I did a very simple sequence today for better posture that was only ten minutes. I had done all the poses with ease in my previous yoga life. Halfway through, I felt like quitting. All evening, I’ve felt the corrected muscles in my back ache slightly. ItContinue reading “[Re-plug] I did a Yoga Sequence for the First Time in 10 months”

[Re-Plug] A Step in the Right Direction

My eating habits have been embarrassing and a source of guilt for me over the past few months. Though I’ve made plenty of good choices, it’s never good enough to shut up the inner critic. If I were listening to that inner critic, they would tell me this meal still isn’t good enough. But it’sContinue reading “[Re-Plug] A Step in the Right Direction”

Look, it’s a metaphor!

I don’t often find poetry in every day life. In fact, people who do that annoy me. But this really struck me. The seeming battle between the storm and the peace, between darkness and light. My recovery has mirrored this battle. Fighting the darkness with light. Keeping the storm at bay while hanging onto the rays of hope. StillContinue reading “Look, it’s a metaphor!”

[Re-Plug] Self-care is self-improvement

When I began the Unplug Initiative, it was with no rigid goals or quotas in mind. I didn’t have an agenda, but I knew I didn’t want to waste my life on Tumblr for 5 straight hours, either. Then recovery got legit. 12-step program, therapy, intense breakup. Massive crying sessions, severe emotional pain. Suddenly, I was wroughtContinue reading “[Re-Plug] Self-care is self-improvement”

Been in therapy

  Working on my emotions, history of trauma, and sexual addiction. This was my last homework assignment. It felt odd and foreign. Voices in my head told me, no, you’re none of these things. They laughed that my name was even attached. But I still did it. And I didn’t listen to the haters. I,Continue reading “Been in therapy”