I’m Going Nowhere; That’s Where I Came From Too

The title is a throwaway line from a poem I wrote a long time ago. It’s a good representation for how I feel right now. I can’t tell anymore where I’m going. It feels like I’ve always been on the road I’m on now, with no end in sight. There’s hasn’t been much re-plug in myContinue reading “I’m Going Nowhere; That’s Where I Came From Too”

[Re-Plug] Hierarchy of Basic Needs

In therapy last week, my therapist shared with me the six basic needs of all humans–connection, purpose, security/safety, acceptance, belonging, significance. These are the human needs at the emotional level, not necessarily the survival level. He then asked me to visually demonstrate on a piece of paper the order of importance these needs had in my life.Continue reading “[Re-Plug] Hierarchy of Basic Needs”

[Re-Plug] How Do I Define My Life? In Two Magazines Worth of Clippings or Less

I used to use magazines to create collages for my bedroom walls. Recently, I re-subscribed to an old favorite magazine of mine (Rolling Stone) as part of a school fundraiser. Though wildly disappointed with the first two issues I received, I figured it would be a good chance to find the beauty in something less than perfect.Continue reading “[Re-Plug] How Do I Define My Life? In Two Magazines Worth of Clippings or Less”

[Re-plug] I did a Yoga Sequence for the First Time in 10 months

I haven’t regularly practiced yoga in a year. I did a very simple sequence today for better posture that was only ten minutes. I had done all the poses with ease in my previous yoga life. Halfway through, I felt like quitting. All evening, I’ve felt the corrected muscles in my back ache slightly. ItContinue reading “[Re-plug] I did a Yoga Sequence for the First Time in 10 months”

[Re-Plug] A Step in the Right Direction

My eating habits have been embarrassing and a source of guilt for me over the past few months. Though I’ve made plenty of good choices, it’s never good enough to shut up the inner critic. If I were listening to that inner critic, they would tell me this meal still isn’t good enough. But it’sContinue reading “[Re-Plug] A Step in the Right Direction”

Look, it’s a metaphor!

I don’t often find poetry in every day life. In fact, people who do that annoy me. But this really struck me. The seeming battle between the storm and the peace, between darkness and light. My recovery has mirrored this battle. Fighting the darkness with light. Keeping the storm at bay while hanging onto the rays of hope. StillContinue reading “Look, it’s a metaphor!”

[Re-Plug] Self-care is self-improvement

When I began the Unplug Initiative, it was with no rigid goals or quotas in mind. I didn’t have an agenda, but I knew I didn’t want to waste my life on Tumblr for 5 straight hours, either. Then recovery got legit. 12-step program, therapy, intense breakup. Massive crying sessions, severe emotional pain. Suddenly, I was wroughtContinue reading “[Re-Plug] Self-care is self-improvement”

[Re-Plug] Things I’m Learning in Recovery

Throughout the course of this blog’s vague direction and scattered postings, I have been in trauma therapy and a 12-step recovery program. There are hard days, there are impossible days, and there are days that make me feel like I really can do it. Unfortunately, it’s not linear. Here are just some of the thingsContinue reading “[Re-Plug] Things I’m Learning in Recovery”

How I Realized that I Don’t Have to be an English Major

Ever since I was a kid, writing in little composition books and typing up stories in Word Document 1996, I knew what I was going to do with my life. Friends and family alike praised my writing ability. Writing was far from my only interest, but no one was praising the collages I had pastedContinue reading “How I Realized that I Don’t Have to be an English Major”