Who Am I Without All the Adjectives?

With the place I’ve been in lately (spoiler alert: a really bad one), I’ve been searching for answers. It hasn’t been a perfectly linear journey, but the things I have found have been eye-opening. Case in point: this wonderful, wonderful blog post from Therapy Beyond the Couch. It walks you through an exercise about your “deepestContinue reading “Who Am I Without All the Adjectives?”

If You’re Struggling, This is For You

Exactly zero people have wondered where I’ve been. I’m not going to apologize and go into some lengthy explanation about my blog and my writing–because literally no one cares. I am making a “where I’ve been” post though because I think there are others out there who need to hear what I’m about to say. IContinue reading “If You’re Struggling, This is For You”

What Are the Benefits of Recovery? (An Incomplete List)

I am not an expert on recovery. I am, however, an  expert in avoiding recovery. Recovery isn’t something I actively chose to gave up, but little by little, the choices I made defaulted against it. Of course, you might also argue that recovery isn’t so black and white. But if I compare my life sixContinue reading “What Are the Benefits of Recovery? (An Incomplete List)”

Why Does It Take Me A Month to Make a New Post?

Where have I been? I couldn’t really tell you. 50% work. 25% spending time with the friend who made the above inspiration board. 25% ignoring responsibilities and wringing my hands in guilt. That’s my best guess. They say you can’t lose recovery. I re-read a post of my own that talks about this. Yet two weeksContinue reading “Why Does It Take Me A Month to Make a New Post?”

I’m Going Nowhere; That’s Where I Came From Too

The title is a throwaway line from a poem I wrote a long time ago. It’s a good representation for how I feel right now. I can’t tell anymore where I’m going. It feels like I’ve always been on the road I’m on now, with no end in sight. There’s hasn’t been much re-plug in myContinue reading “I’m Going Nowhere; That’s Where I Came From Too”

[Re-Plug] Hierarchy of Basic Needs

In therapy last week, my therapist shared with me the six basic needs of all humans–connection, purpose, security/safety, acceptance, belonging, significance. These are the human needs at the emotional level, not necessarily the survival level. He then asked me to visually demonstrate on a piece of paper the order of importance these needs had in my life.Continue reading “[Re-Plug] Hierarchy of Basic Needs”

[Re-plug] I did a Yoga Sequence for the First Time in 10 months

I haven’t regularly practiced yoga in a year. I did a very simple sequence today for better posture that was only ten minutes. I had done all the poses with ease in my previous yoga life. Halfway through, I felt like quitting. All evening, I’ve felt the corrected muscles in my back ache slightly. ItContinue reading “[Re-plug] I did a Yoga Sequence for the First Time in 10 months”

[Re-Plug] Self-care is self-improvement

When I began the Unplug Initiative, it was with no rigid goals or quotas in mind. I didn’t have an agenda, but I knew I didn’t want to waste my life on Tumblr for 5 straight hours, either. Then recovery got legit. 12-step program, therapy, intense breakup. Massive crying sessions, severe emotional pain. Suddenly, I was wroughtContinue reading “[Re-Plug] Self-care is self-improvement”

Been in therapy

  Working on my emotions, history of trauma, and sexual addiction. This was my last homework assignment. It felt odd and foreign. Voices in my head told me, no, you’re none of these things. They laughed that my name was even attached. But I still did it. And I didn’t listen to the haters. I,Continue reading “Been in therapy”