A Guide to a Crisis

I have stumbled upon a mental crisis. I'm talking deep, dark place, code red, talk me off the ledge crisis. Thankfully, I didn't do anything destructive or harmful, aside from some yelling. What pulled me back down to earth a little from my downward spiral was the thought that if someone else were in this…

[What I Did Today] It’s Just A List

This is me. You've seen me before. You know who I am. But I wonder if I know her anymore. I'm totally different from the person I was a year ago, two years ago--God forbid we go any further back than that. I fell into a vicious cycle of depression and anxiety around September of…

One Tool in My Resource Toolbox

Since my soul-baring post about depression,  I knew I had to try something different. Anything. No matter how small or seemingly insignificant. My answer? Using this Pacifica app more regularly. I downloaded it when I was still employed and very stressed, thinking it could help me. It's a very cool app that allows you to track your…

Searching for Significance

  I crave significance. Why I do isn't very important. When I say crave significance, I mean, from a young age, I have wanted my life to matter in a profound way. I fear being insignificant or meaningless. Through the years, I have tried all kinds of ways to create meaning. When I was a…